Ex. 20:17 “You must not covet your neighbor’s house. You must not covet your neighbor’s wife, male or female servants, ox or donkey, or anything else that belongs to your neighbor.”
I am well aware of the covetous thoughts that have repeatedly slipped into my mind like a familiar melody, a whispering longing, at times pining over what others have, throughout the various stages of my life. The envious thoughts and jealousy may appear mild, inconsequential, and fleeting, yet upon deeper reflection, when I do allow them to settle deeper into the recesses of my mind, they often result in some degree of resentment over how God has made me, how He has formed me. All the more so if it’s about an area of gifting and abilities in which I feel particularly vulnerable or inadequate, which will often cause me to conclude that somehow God has shortchanged me, but instead chose to bless others with more than me. This perceived lack of gifting causes me to feel less equipped, less prepared for the challenges and trials of life. It feels like He has been more generous to others and cheated me.
Recently, as I was reflecting on this common human struggle and how the temptation to covet pops up so frequently, it occurred to me that God understands our heart and gave us the tenth commandment to warn us not to go down that road. Coincidentally, God also brought to mind the truth regarding His impartiality, which reflects His character as a just God. As I ruminated on these two truths from God’s word, a sense of relief started to well up deep within me. As I locked these two truths in my mind, I sensed the Holy Spirit’s nudge to break an old thought pattern, teaching me that I should not covet, because God is fair and impartial. If God does not show partiality in how He chooses to distribute talents, gifts, and abilities, then the way He has gifted me and equipped me for life is equally gracious compared to everyone else according to His plan.
Holding these two truths in my mind – the command not to covet plus His impartial character – caused me to conclude then God has not shortchanged me in gifts, talents, or abilities. Of course, others may possess qualities that I desire or envy, but my attention and energy should really be focused on discovering and discerning my gifts and talents, then using my God-given aptitude, strengths, and abilities in my work and ministry. Finding work and ministry roles that are aligned with and complement my gifting will bring God glory and delight, for it reflects a faithful stewardship of what He has entrusted me. I’m learning this is a great remedy or balm to sooth my sinful predisposition to covet, envy, or become jealous of my neighbor’s belongings.